let me go

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm going through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows

it ends tonight.........

Thanks for loving me for all this time
You are the best thing ever happen in my whole life
segala yang kita pernah lakukan bersama,
spend time together would be the sweetest moment in my life
I'll love you forever
Even it means that i have to see you from a distance
i really hope u'll live happily after this
I'm sorry but i don't deserve u
u are too good for me
maybe tak ada jodoh antara kita
and maybe ada jodoh yang lebih baik
lebih sempurna untuk u di luar sana
I akan sentiasa mendoakan kebahagian u
halalkan makan minum I selama I bersama dengan u
I terlalu sayangkan u
hingga I tak sanggup kecewakan u with my condition
and please, be more happy after this okay??
I hope we can still be friend
peace...............

your friend,

kehidupan sebelum menghadapi final~~

final dah dekat.....subjek bertimbun-timbun tak study habis lagik....gap plak sekejap jek....sadis tol la nak menanggung beban camni.....paper start 11/11 and then habis plak 25/12...yang paling tak boleh blah, gap antara 4th paper n last paper >> SEMINGGU!!!!!!! Bengang pon ade la gak....dah la paper last 2 cume 2 crdt hour jek....haish~~~hati pon sakit camni....huhuhuhu.....so, sementara aku ngah menghadapi saat-saat akhir menjelang perperiksaan neh (mcm tiap-tiap sem takde final exam jek), sempat la aku melagha ngan kazen aku....since fisio pon ditangguhkan and segala medical check-up di bawa ke hujung bulan, ade la jugak mase free aku nak mengadap muke kazen aku neh.....mempersembahkan, kazen aku yang tengin lagik hayun..... MAZNI ZUHAIRAH!!!!!

tengin pomot hp bru dier....kah kah kah

sementara menunggu cap-cap datang amik aku kat mekdi gopeng...sempat la gak kami bercengkerama kat citu....alang-alang menyeluk pekasan katenye~hahahahahahaha...btw, time last week,aku balik penang......since ade MRI appointment n all x-ray related stuff sume, sempat la aku gi berjalan-jalan di queensbay mall....nak buat camne, bosan punye pasal...tapi takde la lame sangat pon...hehehehehe...lame tak lame sangat la, tapi sempat ahh gak cekau sepasang kasut untuk keselesaan kaki.....

ni si hayun ngah pomot kasut plak.... :P

and then, last last last last last LAST week, sempat la gak gi berkaraoke ngan atak mazni n abang marwan...karaoke kat GM...lepas la gak gian melalak since dah lame gile tak melalak kan??hehehehehe....

khusyuknye kome melalak......

and last......ni gambar-gambar last kopek.....gambar yang diambil di kala kebosanan.....

2 dia cik maz kiter....senyum mengancam...


even though not a blackberry, but still a BERRY!!!

with love,

keliru.....

saban hari aku selalu menuggu kemunculan 'dia'...'dia' yang kononnye pelengkap hari....'dia' yang kononnya dapat menenangkan hati andai di dalam kegelisahan....'dia' yang dapat mententeramkan jiwa di kala gundah...mengapa 'dia' hadir di saat akhir????tertanya2 jugak aku....petunjuk tuhan agaknya....hanya DIA yang Maha Mengetahui....segala yang terjadi telah pun ditentukan sejak azali lagik....hrummmm...cume kadang-kadang hati ini tertanya-tanya...penuh curiga...adoiyai....knape perlu ade dalam situai ini????keliru ngan diri sendiri....keliru dengan kehendak jiwa sendiri....benci betul kalau benda-benda macam jdik dalam hidup....dalam keadaan diri sendiri pon tak berape nak btul...dengan kehadiran 'dia' sebagai penyeri....namun perasaan hati harus didiamkan....kalau aku nyatakan pon ape je yang aku akan dapat????gelak???ditertawakan???kerana keikhlasan menyayangi 'dia'?????argggggghhhhhhhhhhh.... serabutnye~~~

.:: if u're NOT the one ::.

someone had sang to me this song......very sweet of "him"......

If you're not the one
then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one
then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine
would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings,
but I know you are here with me now,
We'll make it through,
and I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away
but I can't take it, I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you
then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you
then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me
then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me
then why do i dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away,
But I know that this much is true,
We'll make it through,
And I hope you are the one I share my life with,
And I wish that you could be the one I die with,
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with,
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss you
body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away,
And I breathe you
into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today,
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right,
And though I can't be with you tonight,
You know my heart is by your side

with love,

kembali sudah~~

selepas seminggu beraya, eyh silap, 2 minggu beraya....balik jugak aku kat UTP neh......malas tol la nak start balik study2 aku yan dah tunggang-langgang neh....nak tak nak kena ahh wat gak....

6/10/09 >> presentation sepro, business meeting PCS
7/10/09 >> test II probstat
8/10/09 >> presentation Safety
15/10/09 >> presentation PI

ni belum lagik masuk yang last minit post by lecturer....haish~~~kepala manyak pening wooo....hati pon sakit camni...udah la takde study week sem neh...ni semua sebab kes cuti H1N1 ritu la....geram+benci tol ngan UTP.....bodo piang....tapi nak wat camne...redha je la....japgi de kelas basic dance plak....adoiyai.....anyone, plz help me!!!!!!!

.:: hidden love ::.

Passion burning deep in my heart...

Wishing that we were never apart...

Coming together hand in hand...

Melted and pressed as grains of sand...

Shaping a most beautiful pane of glass...

Etchings abound and trimmed with brass...

A beautiful display wanting all to see...

Remains hidden and sheltered only for me...

with love,

berpuasa.......

hari ini, genap la 12 hari dah umat Islam berpuasa....Bagi yang mampu untuk menunaikan, sila-sila lah continue puasa....Bagi sape2 yang xmampu, takpe wat puasa ganti nanti...hahahahahah....bulan puasa ni lah bulan kita nak wat baik, wat amal jariah, at least kurang lah 'setan' skit dari bulan2 yang lain....(istighfar).....takpe, tak banyak pahala pon, sikit2 pon lebih baik dari tak ade langsung....

sejak 2-3 hari nih, hati aku terasa sakit yang amat....macam ditikam-tikam dari belakang....kenapa perlu ada rasa macam ni di saat-saat aku rasa mood aku tengah peek season??Hati terasa macam orang yang sangat2 rapat dengan aku berkatakan sesuatu yang buruk dan tidak benar mengenai diri aku.....Alhamdulillah lah kalau kata-kata buruk pasal diri aku je, harap tak lah sampai melibatkan ahli keluarga aku yang lain.... *sigh*

Nasihat di bulan puasa: usah terlalu mempercayai orang...kadang kala orang yang sangat rapat, sangat mesra dan sangat memahami kita tu la yang akan tikam kita dari belakang.....aku dah pernah experience dah benda tikam2 neh dulu.....tak sanggup dah nak rasekan lagik...hopefully that was the first and the last one....tapi kadang2 ade je orang yang baru je kite kenal tapi sangat2 menghargai setiap ape yang kita lakukan....sentiasa support kita dalam setiap keputusan yang kita buat.....harap-harap orang tu akan muncul satu hari nanti dalam hidup aku neh..... (raser2 nye dah ade kowt....HAZIRAH MD SAAD tak salah aku name budak tu.....ahhahaahahha)

Dalam keberkatan bulan puasa neh, just nak cakap....thanx IERA for being such a nice friend to me.....ko segala tempat aku meluah rasa dan selalu support aku dalam setiap ape yang aku wat....ko jugak la teman tido aku kat rumah kalau time cuti....hahahahaha....ko memahami segala yang tersurat dan tersirat di dalam hati neh....since situasi ko pon aca-aca macam aku gak satu ketika dahulu....hahahahahha....may god bless our friendship forever..... *hugs and kissess* xoxo

with love,

find the one.........

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...

wait for the man who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares
and how lucky he is to have YOU...

The one who turns to his friends and says,
THAT'S HER...

with love,

mari mem'blog'ing

adoiyai...lame betul dah tak di updatenye blog neh....macam2 benda boleh diceritakan...latest convofair 09....Best gak ahh sebab AMY SEARCH nagn AIZAT AF4 datang wat performance kat Convo Square...plus convo baru2 neh sayangness aku grad...so ak pon dok masuk dalam chancellor hall 2 ngan parents dier and abg dier...sape xcuak weyh bile kne duduk kat sebelah in-laws neh....tapi, name pon Fatin Mardiyah kan...mne bley tunjuk kecuakkan tu...betul tak???hahahahah..

invitation card for the convocation ceremony

after convocation and after melantak

happy graduating to all yang graduated minggu lepas....sape2 yang blom graduate lagik, takpe...jangan risau...ade lagik convo pasni...hahahahahaha....relax ahh..aku pon blom grad lagik...hehhehehe

with love,